A DOTING mum has spoken of her emotional agony after her daughter died in a horrific car accident.
Fighting back tears, Lisa Garner said she visits the crash scene every Saturday night and lights a candle in memory of her daughter Payton Sparks.
And the 35-year-old says she relives the accident every day – wishing she could trade places with her daughter.
As previously reported in The News, Payton, who was 16 and known as Poppy to many, died on May 25 when the Vauxhall Tigra she was a passenger in left the road and struck a building, part of Staunton Country Park premises, at Petersfield Road in Havant.
Lisa, of Botley Drive, Leigh Park, told The News: ‘Every day I get up and it’s like I’ve been punched in the stomach.
‘We were so close. She was like my best friend more than a daughter.
‘I go up to the place where she died.
‘I go up there and have starting making dried flowers. I must have a talent for it, because they look pretty good.’
Lisa said Payton was ‘just coming into her prime’ when the accident happened and had been attending a house party in West Leigh.
Payton was planning on getting a job working with children.
The 16-year-old’s last words to Lisa were ‘I love you’ as she went off out with her friends. I said I love you, so that’s some comfort to me,’ said Lisa.
‘In life there’s always a good thing at the end.
‘There’s always a light, but with this, there’s no light. I am never going to see her again.
‘It just goes through my head over and over again.
‘I wish it was me – any parent would. I picture the accident and I just want to pick her out and pull her away. She must have been so scared. She was such a baby.’
Lisa said the night of the crash she received a call from a friend and drove up to the crash scene where she saw a sea of blue flashing lights.
When the police wanted to take her into a van to deliver the bad news, Lisa said she started running – because she didn’t want to hear that her daughter had died.
‘I looked at this police woman and I just knew,’ said Lisa.
Lisa said the one place where she feels close to Payton is her bedroom, which is the same as the day she died and has her ashes in an urn.
‘I go in there and tidy it up, co-ordinate her clothes, put a few photographs up,’ said Lisa. ‘I just go in there and sit. I feel closer to her.’